[darkfanboy]

Thanks Faunus. You are right therapy does help. We went through grief counseling through our local hospice who helped forward us on to a professional grief counselor. We saw him once a week for a year till I started my own business and money got super tight. I've thought about returning to see him but I just don't have much time. I'm doing well enough though that its mostly manageable. The nightmares are the worst though. I know a lot of people talk about miscarriages on here, and I've talked to parents who've been through them. Its not quite the same loss but they at least know what that loss is. The poor detective who had to work our case had been through three miscarriages with his wife. He said ours was the toughest case he ever worked. I still nod or shake his hand when we cross paths now and then. I'm rambling... need to get ready for the day, pick up again later...