(09-09-2012, 05:26 PM)Kilix Wrote: Wow Faunus, that was very insightful. It's interesting to hear about the gender identity issue from the opposite side of the spectrum. The whole "wanting to smash a mirror" thing stood out to me a lot, because I strongly wish my own body was more feminine.
Also... am I the only guy in the world that doesn't have a problem with facial hair? I mean, I've seen women with facial hair before; sometimes significant amounts of it, and to me it didn't even register. I've seen women will full fledged beards and still thought they were attractive. I'm not specifically attracted to it; I just really don't care.
I'm so sorry you struggle with this, Kilix. I wish that the process of a sex change wasn't so simple for transguys... just take T and voila. Convincing transformation 99% of the time. I sometimes wish the option would go away so the nagging hope would leave me in peace.
And HA! That bit about the facial hair is awesome. Makes me want to stick some of those fuzz they use in movies on my face. Really though, that's kindof unusual! Bearded women look odd to me, but if they are trying to be men... I guess that's hot... now I'm confused, lol. Reminds me of this vid that made my heart pound like crazy, lol: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Wjg_pmdX8no
(09-10-2012, 05:41 AM)darkfanboy Wrote: @Faunus - You sound exactly like my wife. And I've been in the same boat as you for as long as I can remember. Gender confusion sucks. I would gladly trade places with my wife in our relationship if I could. Not just because I want to bear children into my family, but because when I see a woman I'm jealous of every thing she is. I've struggled with it too and resigned myself to being male after being outed by a family member to my mother. Though it always seemed apparent my mom wanted a daughter she got me and my brothers. I don't feel diminished by my lifestyle choice but it always lingers there in the back your mind, I should have done it. And also, as long as she still was mostly hairless and largely effeminate, I could have been gay for my wife. Its odd the things we do for love.
To both Kilix and Darkfanboy: It's really great to share these feelings with others who know the pain... I didn't realize how many others like me I'd meet in an mpreg forum. What I find interesting is that you are both men who don't mind feminization at all and want to be pregnant. I think that zacklovesmpreg is right that many transguys covet their manliness and see any act of femininity a threat, but I can say, as much as I failed to get off on being pregnant despite my fetish, I had no probs with it beyond the discomfort and shyness, lol. And I remain transgendered, even if I decided to stay female.
As for that bit about doing crazy things for love, Darkfanboy, I fantasize that my husband would still be with me if I got a change... I know he'd love me but I don't think there'd be any more sex. He's very strongly hetero. No more sexual compatability would be pretty much a bomb in everything. I struggle with nightmares and stuff on bad months. Maybe if I sneak images of me photoshopped as a guy in on him enough he'll get used to that version of me... I am not sure if hope is healthy or not here. Also not sure if going out and jogging, would more than clear my head, get me in shape to like myself. Or would that be the gateway to a growing problem... like a drug?
In my unlived fantasy though... I wanted to be with a girl or guy, and be male myself. I'd feel damn accomplished if I had a baby as a man, and there's a spark of hope in me that I'll get to change and try that out, LOL.
My advice to a gay guy who wants an F2M man so they can have a genetic child and share the experience of bringing life into the world... get on youtube. There's TONS of transguys on there. Big movement of them sharing transition blogs. ;) There's more F2Ms than ever.