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(Aw, thank you. I love having a friend like you to chat and explore roleplaying with. You are wonderful at roleplaying as well. You read me like an open book, love. I wanted it to be severe as possible with building up tension in the situation Aki was in. :D)

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Aki cried out for Nick, wanting to be able to hold his hand as the pains became too much to bear. He whimpered, trying to focus only on ignoring the agony that he felt in his stomach area. He looked up with tearful eyes, relieved to see the presence of his beloved Nick as he entered the room. The situation was severe and that only added to Nick and Aki's worries. He looked over at his lover, glad to have him.

He was not aware that he was pregnant yet as the doctors were keeping that realization from him. When he heard Nick revealing a secret Aki was overjoyed. He was nervous because of the blood he had lost after he fell. He knew that it was not Nick's fault and he made sure that Nick knew that. He would be a caring, nurturing mother again and Nick would be a strong, providing father of their new children like before.

"We will be parents again! .. that is wonderful!" He smiled weakly but enough to be noticed. He yawned, struggling to stay awake but his open eyelids began to droop. "You are a wonderful father Nick!" while speaking his eyes closed and he was unable to finish his upcoming sentence. He then felt his body becoming still, slumbering in uncontrollable unconsciousness for a short while or so to rest his body and mind.

He wanted their child to be unharmed but he knew that both him and the child's life were on the line. He felt the familiar darkness sneaking up on him like a sniper, fighting to stay awake and conscious but the terror was much too strong. He lifted his head and then felt it drop as he grew unconscious once again. The blood that came free from him was a large flow that grew and grew in size as it stained the hospital bed that he was laying on his back upon. He dreamed about the child that he and Nick would have, eager to see his or her face. He stayed unconscious for a while, struggling to awaken from it's bottomless depths.

He awoke in a few hours, finding himself laying on the same hospital bed, he was confused as he was not aware of where he was but was soon familiar of what had happened when he saw Nick sitting in a chair beside his bed. He yawned softly, trying to move but had been hindered by the pains so he was hesitant to do such things in fear of the sensation slowly and unsteadily increasing in what was frequency and size.

He felt a few twinges of pain, wanting more than anything to simply be back home where he felt safest and not in this cursed hospital bed but he felt safe whenever he was around his beloved Nick and him alone. He groaned gently, he did not blame Nick at all for the situation that they were both now in. Things like this happened sometimes, it was simply an accident. "Nick .. where are we?" He asked softly, his voice hoarse from intense screaming like cries and became of a weak, mouse like squeak. Life was like waking up with new eyes, always wanting to see Nick and witness his sexy smile.

(I love flattering you and you deserve it. Aw, you are so sweet. I adore Nick like you love my character. I will tone down my posts as well and the doctors manage to save Aki and the unborn babe's life. I did and do not want to be that dark in my upcoming posts and it is alright, you did not offend me you were just providing information. :))

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"I will be strong for our family. I promise." Aki said with a proud smile, his next spoken of sentence was cut off by a gentle yawn as he struggled with keeping his eyes open. He felt his eyelids becoming heavy and drooping closed as the tranquilizer took affect. He let his lover hold his hand, listening to his lover's voice as he slipped away to sleep to rest his weary body and gain strength and energy back once again.

Aki looked up at Nick, trying to stay awake and alert but was unable to succeed and conquer the fight. He wanted nothing more than to gaze up into Nick's handsome eyes and remain that way. Life was like an intense fight for survival. He was uncertain as to if the child within his would still be thriving and alive. He struggled to stay conscious but sadly lost that fight so there he was, lying still for what was a long amount of time but wasn't dead. He wanted nothing more than to remain alert but he lost the battle and simply laid still as slumber threatened to overcome him and shove him away from consciousness.

He may have been asleep but he still felt his hand being held by Nick gently but firmly, never wanting him to let go. He loved hearing Nick's voice as it spoke to him ever so softly through the thick, pitch dark endless haze of what was of unconsciousness for a time. He was confused as though he was having amnesia. Life was about easily remembering things but all he remembered was dancing and collapsing.

When he slept it was dark outside, the scorching hot sun descending below the horizon. He stayed asleep for a while, yawning softly as he awoke. He tried to get up but his weary body was much too weak to do even the simplest movements. Gently he expressed a groan, staying in a position of what was laying flat on his back. He was sore between the area which was the depths of his upper thighs. He felt an unbearable, scorching heat as his sacred woman like area was raw, sore and irritated. He looked around the room at the unfamiliar four walls of the hospital room he was in with a deep amount of curiously.  

With each passing second the small unborn child was struggling to stay alive, letting it's mother and father know that it was still strong. The child was eager to fight for survival and it seemed like something that the child wanted to explore outside if it's warm, gently pulsing womb like home. The tiny child who was a boy had slowly grown a bit in size and was wondering as what was beyond it's fleshed shelter.

He wanted to be strong for his parents. As if he was asleep for what seemed like a million years he finally responded, fluttering his eyelids in silence to get the leftover drowsiness from his eyes, feeling more than invigorated. "I remember being with you and me dancing but I do not remember anything else." He said softly, not familiar of the hospital. He wanted to walk but his body would not allow him such a movement. Time seemed to not be on his side but he made the best of things as they were. He was curious about the twins and the life of the unborn inside of him

He sighed softly with relief as he saw the familiar face of Nick who was his partner, gently resting his head upon the pillow. He yawned once more and became quiet, simply just gazing into Nick's eyes.

(Aw, thank you love. And I love your ideas. They are interesting and fun to roleplay. As for the idea of one of the twins perishing I would love to do that with Aki and Nick. And I can tell that this will be much more fun in our upcoming posts and it has been a long and fulfilling journey that Aki and Nick has been through.:D)

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Aki looked at Nick with worry in his eyes, he reached out and gently stroked Nick's hair on top of his head. "Shhh Nick .,. it is alright. It was just an accident. I do not blame you." He never saw Nick fall victim to him emotions before and to be honest it broke his heart into a million pieces when he heard his sobbing. He tried to cheer his beloved Nick up but his lingering sorrow was too much to bear. He frowned, feeling as if he was losing his grip on the reigns of what was reality. "Never say those such lies my love, you are a wonderful father. You are a thousand times better than Christopher ever was. Our child will be fine, we just have to stay positive and remain that way. Our child needs us to be strong, alright." He said gently to Nick, kissing him on the cheek and the forehead like a true affectionate father.

He held his beloved close to him, refusing to ever let go until Nick stopped crying. He also wanted to cry and his own voice shook like the wrath of a mighty earthquake shaking him to his core. He wanted nothing more than to know that their child or children were doing alright. He was hoping that it was another son or daughter that they would have. He was nervous about if the child had perished because of the enormous blood loss or if it survived against all odds. All he and Nick had wanted to do was find out such questions and have an ultimate answer through it all. He kept his spirits high as time passed like years.

Nick was always there for Aki whenever Aki felt worthless so now Nick needed him now more than ever. "It is not your fault sweetheart, things like this happen." He continued to stroke upon the top of Nick's soft haired head. "We will make it through this no matter what. I promise." He said with a soft. strong voice at first but the it shattered like glass, becomimg  broken even as he tried to stay strong through it all. He let himself and his beloved cry till there were no other tears to shed. He was proud of Nick through it all, even when he became vulnerable and dropped his guard. He gently lifted Nick's head up by his chin ever so gently, gazing into the depths of his eyes. ""Listen to me Nick, it was not your fault. I refuse to believe that you would ever hurt me on purpose or accidental."

(That sounds like an interesting idea. One of the twins surviving and the other one perishing makes this roleplay tragic. That is even better. It will add to the trauma for Nick and Aki our wonderful roleplay. And I would love that about Aki being pregnant again and his stomach showing slightly at the 4 month mark of what will be a long wait until it shows completely. I hope that I am not doing too much with my posts? If I am then you can feel free to tell me. I keep thinking that I am doing too much.)

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Aki loved the delicate but firm type of way that his manly husband Nick would always treat him like the center of his world but now it was his turn to provide the endless amount of comfort to Nick and show him unconditional love as well. He kept himself close to Nick as possible and had worried about his state of mind. He never saw him express tears or cry before so it had broken his heart into a million pieces. He spoke softly and with a shaky voice of his own, feeling as if the tears that Nick and he had expressed would never ever end. He hummed gently to try to get his beloved to cheer up but he knew that he was broken beyond repair but he would do anything to get his Nick to show a sexy, handsome smile that always took his breath away in positive ways. He simply comforted his saddened lover with gentle touches.

He was eager to be with his beloved Nick and stay by his side like a true wife would. He was becoming highly nervous that something was wrong like a natural mother could be, concerned because he saw the saddened look on the doctor's face after he entered the room to provide news. He wanted his beloved to know that it was not his fault. Not at all. He did not know that one of the twins had perished and had not been prepared at all but as long as Nick was with him he felt as though he could conquer anything life threw. He was also anxious to know if the child had survived but he knew that something was not right.

He gasped at the news, feeling as though he was becoming numb of any and all emotions. He wanted to curl up into himself and forget the words of grief that the doctor had expressed. He frowned, gripping at Nick's hand and had never let go. Not even for a single minute. He felt as though he was drowning in his emotions as they threatened to swallow him up into the depths of what was a thick darkness. He wanted to say something but his lower lip had quivered and so did his body as well as if it had a single mind of it's very own. He wanted to vomit, he wanted to throw rage would do but a thousand times worse than anything ever seen before but he controlled himself. Life was like an endless amount of glorious presents and many other emotions but all Aki felt was sorrow and anger but kept it hidden from all in the room.

He composed himself and took a deep breath, swallowing as he felt sick to his stomach. He was strangely relieved that they had only one remaining surviving twin of the second batch of children that was inside of his womb. He did not ever blame Nick for anything. It was not his fault. It was a harmless accident. He knew that Nick would not ever harm him or their unborn child to be accurate. Life was of giving and taking away and he accepted that. He whimpered softly, keeping his tears in for what was a short while but then they betrayed him by streaming down his also mourning face like an endless, salty river.

"It is alright love, it is not your fault. You must not blame yourself." He said softly with a quivering voice, wanting to see his beloved's eyes to gaze down into his own ones. He refused to let Nick say that he was to blame. He wanted to always be with his beloved, never wanting to be in this unfamiliar room that was inside of the hospital. "You did not trip me, my love. I fell. It happens sometimes."

(It is alright, I am patient. And I was busy as well so there is no need to apologize. I am relieved that I am not doing too much and anything in our roleplay replies that you do is fine with me. I do not mind short posts, your posts are enough for me. :))

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Aki was heartbroken by the deceased twin inside of his womb. He felt terrorized by that such thought, shivering and shuddering at what he had been in mental thought of. He wanted to vomit upon knowing of what had happened to cause the such child to perish from the world. He wanted to sob, wanted to cry his eyes out until there was no more tears to ever be left to shed. He curled up in the bed, wanting to simply sleep the days away but he forced himself to stay awake and remained that way. Indeed .. it was such devastating news to hear with the depths of what was of his two sensitive human ears.

He seemed to be numb, trying his very hardest to control his emotions but he was much too far gone. It was not Nick's fault, all he wanted him to do was dance for him and him only. He looked up at Nick with weary, saddened and tear filled eyes. Life was meant to be lived but all he wanted to do was die and be dead to the world. He wanted nothing more than to see the remaining twin that had miraculously survived the test of time. He hoped that when the twins Hercules and Angel were old enough then the would not known that their sibling was sadly stillborn. Life was so much like a hellish nightmare that he wanted to awaken from. He refused to believe that the other twin was stillborn but it was true. He sat up, rubbing his belly which had been filled with the remaining infant who was alive, breathing and healthy as an Ox.

He wanted to hold the stillborn child but did not know how long he could hold onto being calm. He felt as though the sea of sadness and sorrow was endless and there was no help in sight but each other and he loved being with Nick even through such harsh times. Silently he listened to the doctor, noticing that he was being a little harsh on Nick. He wanted to say something to the doctor but was much too far from what was of normal human interaction. He wanted to realize that one of the children was deceased but he still refused to believe such news. He raised his lowered eyes, gazing up into Nick's eyes and tried to focus only on him and him alone to take the agony of grief away for a while. Even if just for a brief time. He tried to smile but all he could do was look at Nick and his tearful eyes. He let his beloved Nick express himself.

"The doctor is right, we do still have a remaining child to love and raise along with his or her two older twin siblings Angel and Hercules." He said softly with a quivering voice, wiping Nick's tears that he expressed away. "I love you Nick, I do not blame you." He embraced Nick close, letting him cry for a time as he had did so as well. He did not care of how the doctor felt of their crying, all he cared was about Nick's well being and their sadly lifeless, unborn child. He wanted to have a funeral for the child and keep his or her remains in a box after cremating him or her. He felt disconnected from all of what was reality, finding comfort in the depths that was of soothing warmth of Nick's strong, gentle arms. He loved being with him and as for now he needed him now more than ever. "I love you Nick, we will get through this together."

He sighed while he had felt as though he would never get over this tragedy but tried to see the positive side of it. He sighed while he softly swallowed down his deepening emotional turmoil and knew that Nick was trying to move on as well. Their stillborn child would be an angel in Heaven and would be well taken care of and that was something that he found uplifting. The child earned his or her wings and halo.

(You are welcome, my friend. And I am glad that I am able to express myself fully in my replies. And it is so very fun to reply to your posts. You are really smart when it comes to explaining the pregnancies and the sizes of the children. I am glad that you put info for me to understand. As for the time skip it is alright, I am up for any ideas you have. Even if it is time skips. There is no need to apologize my friend. :D)

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Softly, Aki sighed shakily as he was embraced in his lover's arms. He knew that the tiny, deceased and decomposing child inside of his womb would soon be removed from it but was also glad that the remaining twin was growing and thriving slowly. He leaned his head in toward Nick's own one, closing his eyes and letting Nick kiss each of his moist, salty tears away. No longer did he ever care if the doctor was in the room or not, all he cared about was cheering up the emotions of his beloved, saddened Nick. "I love you so much Nick. Now we have a remaining child to love, cherish and adore him or her as well." He expressed a soft, noticeable smile, letting Nick know that he was loved through even their tragedy. Through it all Nick and Aki knew that they would mourn the precious child who had no chance to breathe it's first breaths or kick for the first time but he or she would be an angel in Heaven with tiny fluttering, bright snow white wings and a bright gold halo. He or she was a true angel that was able to remain in the sky for eternity.

He wanted nothing more than to be freed from the shackles of tragedy as he knew Nick tried to as well. He watched silently as the doctor had turned and left the room. He did not care if the doctor was standing in the doorway watching him and his lover or not, all he worried about was Nick's emotions and his own as well. He was proud of being Nick's true lover and had wanted to always be with him. He was a true man to him. He rubbed his belly gently, even though it was still flat it was to slowly expand outward and grow in size as the pregnancy would wear on. He was excited more than ever to know that the older twins would have a brother or sister to care for and play with when they would become older in age. He looked out of the window after turning his head, smiling as he saw the sun shining through the clouds. He was glad that he would see that the child was in Heaven and was watched over by the God that had resided in the such lands in the fluffy, bright white clouds above and would be cared for by his second father God.

"I know, sweetie. And now we have an angel who is watching over us. He or she would get to run around in the heavens above each day and night." He smiled wider, wiping his own tears away as he stayed positive. He was pleased that Nick could be so deep when it came to expressing the lover that he had for Aki and their children who were both born and the other one who was not yet. As if by magic Aki had felt his eyelids droop and close, falling asleep in his arms as they both laid on the hospital bed together in each other's embrace. He slept soundly without difficulty, never waking up until the next day. As the sun played peek a boo over the horizon line he had yawned, fluttering and opening his eyes as he stretched his arms and legs slowly and gently to avoid straining himself or even painfully pulling a tense muscle.

He knew that Nick was the top dog in charge now that his father Christopher was deceased, noticing just how hard he worked to keep the long spanning family business afloat. He was a bit worried that he was working too hard and wanted to show him just how much he loved him. He was eager to get up and walk but he was much too weak to take even a single step around the room but after two long weeks of waiting he was able to walk around the hospital halls and had was eager to soak up the rays of sunlight that shined down from the bright aqua blue skies as they leisurely strolled through the hospital park, feeling as if he was blessed to have been strong enough to stay outside for a whole entire day.

(You are very informative and that is one of many things I adore about you.  And you could never annoy me. There is a saying that goes "you learn new things every day" and as for the pregnant belly thing I agree with you on that, a swollen belly filled with children is my cup of tea.   .. :))

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Aki felt as though he was truly returning to the presence of his naturally blissful and happy self as both he and his beloved walked through the hospital park. He saw a few children in gowns running around and laughing eagerly and had could not keep back the expression of a smile at them. He could not wait until their now three children would be able to run and jump around like they were meant to do but for now all they could do was simply tickle them, make them coo and laugh with humorously funny faces.  He was much too small and slender  to be wearing the large robe but he did not ever complain. Never ever.

He accept the such clothing as it was and simply focused only on Nick and his words. Life was like a bumpy, swiftly moving roller coaster and he was both scared and relieved that he would soon be delivering the remains of the deceased twin and then the other much alive one. Nick and Aki had both wanted the other twin to not be dead but nothing would bring him or her back from the dead, he or she was with God.

He was eager to become large with Nick's third child, smiling as he saw each chirping bird and felt the warmth of sunlight upon his skin. He kept a hand on the front of his slightly swollen belly and the other held in Nick's own one. He knew that the child was slowly growing in size but the two parents needed to be patient, too much worrying would cause great harm to the such remaining child. He wanted to walk for a while but did as he was told without complaint when he was told to sit down for a while. He sighed happily and softly, letting Nick know that he was glad to be with him in the park and under the gentle, overwhelmingly bright, blinding rays of what was sunlight. He hummed softly as he felt eager to be held by his beloved Nick and him only, he wanted to be with the twins and catch up on lost times with them.

"Thank you Nick, I am relieved that both me and our remaining twin are both doing alright, I know that we were both worried about him or her but now we have nothing to worry about or fear of. I wonder if it is a girl or boy." He said with a bright, proud smile as he rubbed his belly in a gentle circular motion for a while. He was also eager to be able to hold the child after the pregnancy was at nine months but he remained patient. He did not mind if it was a son or daughter, all he cared about was showering him or her with all the love and attention like Nick did. He was blessed to have such an understanding lover.

"I am also glad that the twins are not old enough to discover questions to try to discover where we are which is at the annoying, sterilized depths of the hospital." He said with a sigh of relief, not removing his hands from his belly. "I am eager to get back to our twins, I would love to dance for you again and show you that you are not to blame." He smiled once again, placing a kiss upon Nick's soft, delicious lips.

(I love learning new things when we roleplay from time to time. We can skip to when Aki has a bump, that sounds very fun to start at. I adore it when we get to do your ideas, it is very interesting. :))

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Aki sat on the bench, watching as the many energetic children either played catch, swung on the swings or simply climbed up upon the jungle gym under the close supervision of their hawk eyed mother's or stern father's. He sighed happily, taking in breaths of air ever so gently as he noticed the fresh scent of nature that was around him. He wanted these moments to never end. He rubbed his slightly swollen mass of a belly but not as much. He and Nick did not realize that the deceased twin would be making it's appearance there in the park. He was simply enjoying the peaceful and beautiful sunshine filled morning, both lovers were eager to see the third child which was still surviving but had to wait. Both Nick and Aki were more than eager to hold the new addition to the family but knew that patience was key through the pregnancy.

He was annoyed with the doctor but did not dare to complain, after all .. the doctor was doing his job and he respected that fact. He sighed once more, feeling as if life was on the right track. He smiled up at Nick as he expressed a gentle, firm kiss back on his lips. He was not aware that the stillborn twin would sadly soon be expelled from his womb. He would soon be in pain after that was happening, no matter how small the stillborn was. He would soon be in for a scared when the stillborn would soon be birthed from it's mother's womb after he walked around with his father. Life was sometimes about conquering your fears and soon they would do that when the child would make it's forceful debut. Even though it was dead it would soon have a birth like any normal living child but for now it was lingering inside of it's mother's body.

"Aw, our twins will be so energetic when they grow up to toddler size. And I bet that they feel so blessed to have a father like you and a mother like me." He smiled wider, gazing up and getting lost into the endless, bottomless depths of what was Nick's handsome eyes. He let Nick place a hand upon his stomach, keeping the soft, passionate presence of a kiss that the both of them had shared almost endlessly.

When the presence of an unknown child approached he smiled as well down at him. He simply watched as the toddler and his beloved Nick had exchanged words and smiles to each other. He burst out laughing at his sexy, adorable husband's sexy pout and his words. He wrapped his arms around Nick and had continued to giggle happily. "Aw, my poor Nick, I will comfort you. You are so adorable when you are confused."

... His smile faded from sight as he saw the presence of what was a terrifying sight. "What? .. I .. I am not sure." He said with a confused tone to his voice, looking down with wide, terrified eyes as he saw and felt the stain of blood drenching his robe a bright scarlet red. "I am scared Nick .. what is happening?!" He whimpered, trying to figure out as to what was happening that exact minute. He tried to raise himself up to his feet but he was too scared to do that. He felt strange, holding one of Nick's hands as he continued to whimper as his fear had increased to worry and nervousness. He almost vomited at how sick he suddenly felt at seeing the slowly spreading presence of a bloodstain.

(You are very welcome, you deserve the praise and so much more. And we are such a strong pair just like Nick and Aki are. :))

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Aki tried to stay calm and remain that way, breathing in and out gently as he could. He simply whimpered like a saddened puppy, lifting up his two arms and wrapping both of them around his lover's neck as he was encouraged to do. He focused only on remaining relaxed even though he was rapidly losing blood from what was a very strange situation. He wanted to walk but did not dare to vote against being carried because of what was happening so there he was, being picked up and carried inside the hospital and was taken to the room he was in before as he was meant to be in the hospital until the remains of what was left of the dead stillborn was expelled from him. He wanted to forget the stillborn was finally coming and being expelled from his body as a tiny carcass of what was meant to be alive and larger than what it was.

"Alright love .. I will remain calm. I love you." He said soft and shakily to his beloved, protective lover. He looked up at Nick, wanting to close his eyes but was afraid of what would happen if he did that such action. He only did what Nick had wanted him to do, not going against any of it. He looked up at the ticking clock that he heard as he was finally laid on the bed in the hospital room. By his relief he was finally laid down on the bed, doing exactly what the doctor kindly but firmly told him to do after he entered the room. Living was about focusing on the positive things not negative ones. Humans were able to do this.

He nodded, doing what the intelligent doctor had instructed, spreading open his legs as he lifted his head. He closed his eyes, bearing down as softly as he could, not wanting to rush and have something awful occur with the only remaining twin inside of him. He held the insides of his two upper legs where his thigh areas was, taking things nice and steady. He focused only on Nick's words of encouragement and the doctor's instructions down to the very last letter. He did not focus on the feeling of blood streaming down his legs or the sickening feeling of nausea creeping up his throat that had originated from the depths of what was his stomach which was churning with the fully digested food that he consumed earlier in the day. He did not stop pushing forth the stillborn until it was fully birthed or when the doctor told him to stop.

He held Nick's hand, squeezing it whenever he felt his fear take hold. He forced himself not to tense up, struggle or do anything else which would endanger the life of the only twin inside of him. By sheer luck he managed to stay calm and remained that way as he looked on the brighter side of things that were possible when the strange situation was taking place. What he was unaware of was that he was finally birthing the stillborn but he was not knowing of this but Nick seemed to know what Aki didn't. He hummed in his head a song that always calmed him down. He stayed in tune with his body, never going against it. He did not want to see the remains of the child who was long forgotten from this world. It was pure. Life and death were both in sync with each other like peace and war were. Aki and Nick would make it through.

He wanted to know that the child was in capable hands, God's hands. He wanted the child to be safe and sound in death's eternal slumber even though that was a morbid thought it brought him a strange place of peace. All Nick and Aki needed to do was come to a realization that the child was in a better place and accept things as they were meant to be even if they did not agree with it. If living in the world was like this then Aki did not approve of God's methods or the outcomes it was great to know that the remaining offspring would be able to be with Aki and Nick and his or her siblings who were Angel and Hercules.