10-12-2017, 12:58 AM
I didn't think twice about doing it, before I knew it I had slap my mate's cheek. I felt hurt and betrayed. Is that what he thought of me? I bit my lip as I tried holding back tears but it was no use. "How could you say that..." My voice was trembling as I looked at him with pure betrayal in my eyes.
"How can you say that I want to kill all our babies? It wasn't my intention to have our little Theo di-pass away before even being born. I know I have failed him by not giving him the chance of life he deserved, and now all I can think about is how I cannot make the same failure to our other four. I don't know what I did wrong for Theo to be taken away from us so soon... I don't want to exercise anymore because maybe it was the fatigue, I don't want to get sewing projects because maybe it was the stress, and to the food... I limited what I eat, but I was never starving. I don't know if I was over indulging myself and maybe that was the reason I miscarried, or maybe there was something in it that I shouldn't have eaten,. I don't know! and I'm so scared that I miscarry these four too! So how can you just say that as if I don't care about my babies!" The babies became active and I smiled a little at their energy. They must have felt the tension between me and Andres. It had been going on for days now and it surely made them restless as well.
I sighed as I tried to clam myself down, rubbing my belly gently to soothe the babies. If only Andres could notice, the rubbing was done in a more worried and protective manner. "The stress isn't good for the babies, and I can't be stressing myself more because of you and your accusations. I'm going to stay at Taira's for a while until both of us cool off." And not waiting for my love's reply, I went out and made my way to my sister's newly built home.
"How can you say that I want to kill all our babies? It wasn't my intention to have our little Theo di-pass away before even being born. I know I have failed him by not giving him the chance of life he deserved, and now all I can think about is how I cannot make the same failure to our other four. I don't know what I did wrong for Theo to be taken away from us so soon... I don't want to exercise anymore because maybe it was the fatigue, I don't want to get sewing projects because maybe it was the stress, and to the food... I limited what I eat, but I was never starving. I don't know if I was over indulging myself and maybe that was the reason I miscarried, or maybe there was something in it that I shouldn't have eaten,. I don't know! and I'm so scared that I miscarry these four too! So how can you just say that as if I don't care about my babies!" The babies became active and I smiled a little at their energy. They must have felt the tension between me and Andres. It had been going on for days now and it surely made them restless as well.
I sighed as I tried to clam myself down, rubbing my belly gently to soothe the babies. If only Andres could notice, the rubbing was done in a more worried and protective manner. "The stress isn't good for the babies, and I can't be stressing myself more because of you and your accusations. I'm going to stay at Taira's for a while until both of us cool off." And not waiting for my love's reply, I went out and made my way to my sister's newly built home.