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It wasn't James' intention to be making his wife sad, but seemed like he had said the wrong thing. "no! i wanted thiss... but i also didn't want... i don't know, Horu... i'm so sorry. I... i shouldn't have said that. Yes you are strong and... I just become overprotective i guess..." James said, even he himself was confused with his words, but all he knew was he couldn't let Horu go. "Horu, can you please forgive me? i should trust you better. I shoudl know you would know your limits.... and i guess i hadn't properly said it, but thank you so much for giving me the massage.. it really relaxes me very much." he said pressing a kiss on Horu's neck, hoping it would soften and compensate for what he had said. "i guess i am always too worried about you... you know, i am still feeling guilty for what i had forced you trhoguh when you're with Henry and Johan..." he sighed, knowing that's where all of his problems had started from.

He pressed another kiss on Horu's neck, sighing again. he still couldn't overcome how he had been so cruel on Horu. his wife had cooked for him every night, but he never touched the dinner. he woudln't talk to his wife. Even when his wife was in pain, he didn't comfort him. He was still so guilty over himself, he became extra portecitve in a way to compensate for that.

(ah i know Mincelot! you know she is - i dunno which - but she writes in chinese? i guess she could be taiwanese)