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"you managed? thanks so much love..." a surprised smile spread over Phil's face. He cupped Caspar's face and gave him a proper kiss on his lips this time. "don't worry about it, i've prepared it just in cases. I just want to do it for so long... you know, we seldom really get to wake up together." the lamentation's clear in his tone, but Phil quickly got pass this topic. He knew there were some things that cannot be fixed and would only lead to disagreement, and tonight he just wanted it to be perfect.

"i'm fine. well, i've been staying safe. Lately i've become a bit into the background. i am in the process of setting a company that's, well, clean. i hope to one day get back to normal days, you know, when everything somehow settles, i want there to be a safe place for us to be." he said, sharing a little bit of his plan. "before you, i'd never thought about getting out of this business. but with you... Caspar. I want to think and start planning about our future." he said. Phil knew how much his lover detested mob work. He hoped he could change for the better for his lover's sake. "i heard as well.. there's a new director and he's been doing everything to make himself look good on the papers." he stroked Caspar's hair. "don't wrory too much... i'm not as targeted as your dad. but yea, promise you. I'll stay safe." he said, rather seriously.

"so... how've you been? are you losing a little weight? is it from the bar? anyone harrassing you lately?" he asked, his concern grew when now he could take in how Caspar looked more properly.